In that moment

This post is really just for me to debrief and to get my thoughts out there after this event that keeps playing on my mind.

On Saturday we decided that due to inclement weather we would go to the local shopping centre to go for a walk. On our way home, we were turning into one of the major roads. As we were accelerating, a car came up behind us and began to honk their horn. The speed limit was 80, we were doing 60 and increasing with speed, as my car is not exactly a V6 and takes a little while to get going. We had definitely given them sufficient way as we entered the intersection. They kept tailgating us with their hand firmly on the horn. I felt really angry, and looked back at them.

It was a two-laned road and so they did what they should have done in the first place and went into the right lane. But then they went in front of us, back into the left lane where we were driving and then slammed on their brakes! I was lucky Hendrik had a quick response time and he quickly braked.

I was now furious. I leant over to the drivers side and started beeping our horn (immature I know). They zoomed off into another street while I grabbed a pen and paper and scribbled down their registration number.

I was quite shaken up and as soon as we walked into the door I called the local police who said they were going to call them for a 'chat'.

So many things keep playing in my mind.

What if there was another car behind us and they ran into the back and hurt Luke?

What if we had crashed into them - it would have been seen as 'our fault'.

What if we we crashed into them and we were hurt? Who would look after Luke? What would happen to my boobs?

Is my car even safe?

They don't make cars like they used to. And quite honestly, if we crashed I think our car may have easily been written off. Actually I'm certain it would have been.

But we are safe. And so is the car.

But it has gotten me a bit nervous - this is just after a friend of mine had their car written off by the same type of reckless driver. I know that I need to conquer these feelings I have, but when I look at Luke and think of what could have been I get really scared inside. If anybody hurt him I tell you.... I don't know what I'd do.

I need to take control. Because if I'm nervous about driving, I will be a crap driver and a potential hazard on the road.

I will take control. I will enjoy driving again. Admittedly I haven't driven since as it's only Monday and on the weekends I'm driven around by my husband because he is generally awesome like that. And when I think about it we went to church and back and I didn't even think about this at all. It just pops into my head every now and then.

I can't control the other drivers on the road but I can be on my guard and safe and do what's right for my family!